Not in a position to be picky

This is so true on so many regards in my life. Need a job, trying to finish up the semester, keep the sexy up, and make new friends. All have been a struggle and I have been way to picky and may need to suck it up and fix the job situation at the least. Can't wait around for the right job anymore, and it suck to have to take something with not much meaning. I guess I'm going to have to hate it so much it will motivate me to keep searching.

Single in a new city

I've been in houston for about 2 yrs. but was in a relationship during most of my time here. Now that I am not, the question of what to do and where to go, frequently enters my mind. My fault for dating a guy not finanical stable and unable to show me a good time around the city.

Its unfortunate the media holds the keys on whats reported. Who to spin stories in favor of or against , while our economy is starving for major changes. America's political parties need to wake up/ more of a reality check and speak on the issues the American ppl what to know. This may take going against the grain. Elections are battles to win, not fight...so everyone will shine their shoes and have their pearly whites ready to convey I'm better.

American Gladiator

Good moringing..

So, I was suppose to go to be early last nite so I wouldn't be tired this morning.
...............................Sidenote: Pecan Cookies! fixed that!!!
This process was delayed by an hour due to the extra episode of American Gladiator. I use to watch this show almost every Saturday. Now that they are trying to bring it back, I had to watch. Basically its the same show with a few new innovation, which don't make or break the show. One thing note-worthy is the female contenders toughness, they were kicking gladiator butt yesterday. In years past, those women Gladiator were tough and resembled body builders, but weren't much Eye Candy. These now have more looks, but seem to lack the ability to defeat contenders and don't invoke that FEAR.....like "I have to go up against that". No "shaking em' boots here"Whether girl or guy, one things holds true, the Elminator looks deadly. All contenders from last nite show looked like they were going to pop a vessel as tired as they were from the obstacle course

In Loving Memory of Meline Renee Thomas

"I am leaving you with a gift, peace of mind and heart. And the
peace I give isn't like the peace the world gives. So don't be
troubled or afraid. Remember what I told you: I am going away, but
I will come back to you again. If you really love me, you will be
very happy for me, because now I can go to the Father, who is
greater than I am. I have told you these things before they happen
so that you will believe when they do happen." (John 14:27-29 NLT)
Dear Meline,
Pray for us that we can do better in the eyes of God. For you are now with him and watching over us. You are already missed, but will always remain remembered in my heart.

Relationship Cycle

So I just got off the phone with my boyfriend E.J. and he's been telling me that he wants to go and get some help of his anger. He has a temper and when he gets agitated he goes off. I have not only witnessed it, but have experienced it 1st hand and I told him that I don't like it. He's like a different person when he acts like that. After just speaking with him, he tells me that he was only planning on seeing someone for one session and doesn't want to dish his money out to

a therapist. What does he think one session will do. "Oh, well I'll get to tell someone my_problems as if that solves everything". NO, its not that simple. "Well, I just know that I need to stay focus and calm and I can do it by myself." NO, if you can do it by yourself than this wouldn't be an issue now.

I'm drawing the conclusion that EJ doesn't have the ability to change. He is who he is and that is it; except him as he is. And as I have already told him. I will not. Our conversation ends with well lets see what happens when I go. Stop, Stop, Stop..... I wish he just admit that he doesn't want help and doesn't think that he's that bad off.

Just stop taking me around circles with the

I want to change,

I want to do better,

I want to improve the way things are

and on

and on

and on

I don't want to leave him and I keep trying to give him the opportunity to figure things out and not rush him, but now I see I'm waiting for something to happen, but that is not going to happen,

until something happens. I'm not going to wait for that. Its so frustrating when you want to help someone and they don't think anything is wrong. What can you do to help them?

1 yr+

Its been raining a lot in Houston. The thing with Houston that is different then NY is that when it rains in NY the temperature tends to drop which makes it cooler. In Houston, on the other hand, that doesn't happen. It seems like it gets hotter when the rain falls here.

One things that has not changed when it rain, is how it can still put me to sleep. The rainy weekends have been pleasant. I just put on the air, which as everyone who lives in Houston already know you need, and try to catch a nap. Just forget about all that is happening outside and be glad that you're not caught in it. I catch some of my best day-time zzzzz's that way. Just love it.

Its real unfortunate that I have been living in Houston for over a year and have not really documented all that I've been through. The weather for one is a huge adjustment by itself, but I've experienced a lot living here. Mostly good experiences and a few bad have occurred during my time here. I've taken what I can from them and have moved on to develop and progress into someone better. I haven't achieve my career goals as of yet, but I must say that I am happy with my life to-date, with my career making its way back on track.

I've met a nice guy. We have been dating for a year in August. The longest relationship for me. Its real cool, even though he is 15 yrs my senior. We are learning a lot about each other and I think a lot about ourselves. I know for sure that I can say, I am. We truly care for one another and he's already stated that he sees himself with me forever. I am not there quite yet, but he does have my heart and with some improvements with our relationship I can see us growing even more closer then we are now. It seems we spend every waken moment together when we are not both at work. It is such a wonderful experience to share your life with someone. He truly has becoming a witness to my life. My documenter if you will.

Its a great feeling.